I feel like all of this is a dare.
11 months ago I dared myself to change my life, to live a dream and travel the world. And with every step I've taken toward completing this dare, I have paused to see if anyone would call my bluff. I've waited to see if I would win this game of chicken.
No one's called my bluff and I'm winning. So why does it feels like I'm loosing?
I'm running so hard toward something and I don't know what it is, and I don't know what I'm running from. There are so many unanswered questions and I know Japan isn't the answer. I know the answer is within - blah, blah, blah.
I know Japan isn't the point.
Japan is not what I'm looking for.
But Japan is everything I'm not.
And because it's everything I'm not, it's going to show me exactly what I am.
No, Japan isn't London (or any other seemingly more perfect city). It's not where I thought I would go. It's not even what I thought I wanted. But I'm getting the distinct feeling, it's what I need.
1 comment:
i think - and hope - japan will be just the thing you're needing. that it will bee a compass for you.
... also, the background of this blog reminds me of a skirt i used to have that i really loved.
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